Starting Over at 40

Today is the 10 year anniversary of when Aaron proposed to me. Here's the story that I wrote 10 years ago: Our 2 year anniversary was on Feb 17 th  but since my Mr. was working that night we decided to go out and celebrate on the 18 th  which was a Saturday.  He told me that he had a plan and it was going to be a surprise so I had no idea what we were doing.  On the Friday he surprised me at work with flowers which was really sweet, so I was really excited about our date on Saturday. One of the girls at work asked if I thought I might be getting something sparkly but my Mr. had told me he still had to save up for a ring so I wasn’t expecting one yet.  So Saturday evening comes along and I got all dressed up because he told me we were going somewhere kind of nice. He had made a couple of comments about maybe going to the movies, and that’s about all I knew at that point.  On our way to Sarnia I told him the conversation I had with my cowo...

Starting over Sunday Nov 28, 2021 at 11:30 am my husband, Aaron, died in the ICU with almost no warning. I arrived at the ICU while they were intubating him and I heard them call a code blue while I was sitting in the waiting room. I was in the room with him, and the doctors and nurses when they stopped doing chest compressions. All the beeping and talking and everything stopped and it was just the two of us in the quiet. I asked him what the hell he had done, and I promised him that I would be ok. The news had started to spread before I even got home that afternoon. My husband was a bit of a local celebrity, so his loss was felt throughout the community, and people I didn’t even know were offering help and support, and sending cards, food, and flowers. I was completely flooded with messages and social media posts, and it was so overwhelming I wasn’t able to respond to everyone. At a certain point I realized that Aaron wasn’t here to see how many people’s lives he had affected, but I h...